You know that feeling in the morning when you wake up, your feet hit the floor and you have this sharp, shooting pain that sprints up to your hip bones? Or how about feeling too tired to go up and down the stairs or even walk across the room? You look at yourself in the mirror and think, “Who in the world is this chick looking back at me?” Or have you seen yourself in a candid photo and feel so grossed out by what you apparently really look like in real life that you just can’t stand the thought of it? Maybe you don’t experience these things or have these thoughts or maybe you do but you haven’t actually acknowledged them. It’s the New Year, time for a new you, right? Well, again, I’m at the cross roads of a New Year and again I have a decision to make.
Do I lose the 50 lbs that really does need to come off for me to live a healthy, active life? Or do I continue to put it off until tomorrow, knowing fully well that tomorrow will never come? Actually this time it’s come and this time I don’t have a choice. For that I’m thankful.
I’d love to say that I’m one of those dedicated, self-motivated people who puts her mind to something and does it instantly. I decide to give up carbs and you guessed it, easy peasy lemon squeezy! Done. That’s not me; believe me, I wish it was. I need something more motivating, something where I don’t have the choice to back out or give up. Three years ago it was in the form of the 90 day weight loss challenge that I was privileged to be chosen to participate in.
The skills I gained from that was life changing…but then I got pregnant…and then I got a little depressed…and then I was nursing for a year…and then I had three children to care for…and then it was just easier to eat from a box and eat all the carbs because they are yummy and who doesn’t love carbs?! And then I woke up needing to lose not 20 lbs but 50, as in 5-0 lbs.
It’s overwhelming when I think about it like that and I’m a perfectionist. Not in the way you may think but a perfectionist in that I won’t try something if I don’t think I can succeed. It’s sad really, what’s made it even sadder is that I see the same trait in my seven-year-old son. That’s an entirely other post though for another time.
Without getting into something political debate let me just say that the recent switch in healthcare has not been kind to my family. As a result we’re leaving conventional health insurance and going with something different. Well, with that something different I am placed in a weight loss program and my family has to pay extra monthly until I reach certain goals. When I first found out about this I cried. I was so ashamed. How could I let this happen? Why did I ignore my own health for such a long time? The more I thought about it, the more I prayed about it, the more I realized what a blessing this will be. This is the kick in the pants that I need. It’s embarrassing to be the fat one in the family we’re paying extra money for. The program we’re part of doesn’t just leave me hanging while I have to pay extra money either. They provide me with a weight loss coach who will check in with me. I’ve also started something new, despite being adamantly against anything this particular brand does, and while I hate to admit it, I do like what they do. I like the workouts, I like the support and encouragement and I love the nutrition system they have in place. We’ll see if I give you more details on that…I’m not here to sell you anything which is why I’m trying to be nondescript.
So watch me try to lose 50 lbs this year. Join in if you want to! I’ll probably be talking a little bit about it in our Facebook group. Here’s to getting healthy in 2016!
Bert Anderson is a blogger and social media manager mom of three living outside of the Twin Cities in Minnesota. She’s the author behind the blog First Time Mom, where she honestly chronicles the peaks and valleys of parenting. Even though she has more than one child, Bert maintains that whether you have one child or 19, there’s a first time for everything. She’s a lover of coffee, conversations, pop culture, healthy living and fitness.