Well, it’s been roughly six months since we launched ourselves into this place we call “parenting”. I don’t know if Ben and I really understood what we were getting ourselves into when we ventured on this unknown ground. From the uncertainty of whether or not we would be able to get pregnant (we’re fans of Friends and the storyline about Monica & Chandler scared me to death!) to my bout with postpardum depression, it’s been far more than a bumpy ride.
Let me start off by saying that pregnancy was nothing that I thought it would be. (Is it ever for any woman?) I was extremely uncomfortable to say the least. In my last trimester I started retaining water like it was my job! (Can anyone say, “Pitting edema?”) Then the labor and delivery came…cake walk compared to the actual 39 weeks I endured sharing a uterus with a very active little boy. I should be frank and admit that the contractions were not pleasant at all; I had back labor. I did opt (at the suggestion of my friend, Jeff, who just graduated med. school) for an epidural. Let me tell you, ladies, the Lord gave us modern medicine for a reason!! Can I get an amen?
Anyways, being a mother was not what I thought it would be. I was a supervisor at a large health insurance company before I had my boy. I enjoyed my job. Then Ben and I decided I’d stay home. I thought my sadness and lonliness was because I was a very social person and needed to be with people. I thought that I wasn’t handling being a mother well and couldn’t wrap my mind around why I didn’t feel closer to my son, Brennan. Four months of feeling that way. Yuck. Finally I sought help. Yes, I soon became one of the 25% of women that are diagnosed with postpardum depression.
I was ashamed at first. I didn’t want to tell anyone. There were a few friends that were very helpful and supportive. My family, of course, was beyond amazing. Right after I was diagnosed I felt terrible about the way I had been acting towards Ben and Brennan. Looking back (and again with the help of modern medicine) I see that those feelings were the depression talking. My doctor told me, “Your neuro-transmitters just aren’t working right.”
I’ve been on medication for over two months now. I am in love with my son. I love and appreciate my husband more than I ever have. I still have feelings (a common misunderstanding of what antidepressants do) and I am definitely happy.
So welcome to the adult life, kids! You wanted to get pregnant? Well, there’s a lot more where that came from. As for us, we plan to enjoy the ride.
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Bert Anderson is a blogger and social media manager mom of three living outside of the Twin Cities in Minnesota. She’s the author behind the blog First Time Mom, where she honestly chronicles the peaks and valleys of parenting. Even though she has more than one child, Bert maintains that whether you have one child or 19, there’s a first time for everything. She’s a lover of coffee, conversations, pop culture, healthy living and fitness.

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